Home Is Where My Mother Is

“I am not strong enough to see the woman who sacrificed a lot for me but I am not with her, physically.”

“Maybe this is my sacrifice for my mother. My mother, who is now sick in the village, is looking forward to my return to take care of her but I have no other choice as I can not take leave and there is no additional money for airplane or ferry tickets to go home. 2 years ago, I bought her a smartphone for our family to make a video call. I was only able to see my mother through my smartphone as she looks so weak and a bit frail through the video call that my sister made.

I am not strong enough to see the woman who sacrificed a lot for me but I am not with her, physically. I spent almost all of my salary to Indonesia for my mother’s medical expenses at the hospital. My mother is old and barely to speak anymore so whenever we had our video call conversation, I will look at my mother’s face as it is our last video call. I can talk to her about everything and I’m sure she understands me. Although she can’t speak anymore but I would try to tell her about my day. I intended to borrow a little money from my employer for my flight ticket to my hometown and my employer gave me a little bonus money from last year. I will not waste our last minute face to face meeting. Only God knows how much I want to go home and kiss my mother’s face. I was only able to pray for my mother’s health and hope that I can meet her before her last breath.”

Holis, 34 years old, Lombok